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Wednesday, 02 June 2010

  • Recruiter.

    Tomorrow I'm going to talk to the US Navy recruiter.

    I wonder what I'm getting myself into.
    But, I'm single, not dating seriously, I need money for college, I want to do something other than my two mediocre minimum wage jobs, I want to be part of something bigger than myself, I want to work towards meaningful goals, I want a healthy lifestyle change that pushes me to be more fit and healthy.



    I'm going to go into either Intelligence or Military Police.
    =)



    I mean, I still have to talk to him.....
    And decide that this is better than getting my degree first.
    We'll see. Who knows.




    Ahhh.

Monday, 17 May 2010

  • I'm feeling wings, although I've never flown.


    I've got a right to be wrong, so just leave me alone.





    Life is complicated. I don't need stress. I'm changing it. Today starts now. My life starts today. My life starts now. Here's to upholding high standards for myself, spoiling myself and nobody else, and letting only the good come in, and OUT with the bad.

Sunday, 16 May 2010

  • Call it whatever you want...

    I'm depressed.

    I'm not entirely happy with myself lately, but I'm letting outside influences determine my own happiness.





    I have a lot of thinking to do,
    but sadly enough, I don't think things are going to work the way I'd like, or he'd like.




    Spend all night with Marcus' mom, and we went grocery shopping, and bookstore diving, and this morning we made carne asada fajitas. We watched "I CAN DO BAD ALL BY MYSELF" twice. It was amazing.



    I needed a girls night. Even if it was with his mom.

Tuesday, 11 May 2010

  • Confessing love

    16 days until I get to be back in your arms again. 16 days until my life will change forever, for the better. You're going to be my husband. You're going to be the father of my children. You're going to make a commitment to me, and we're going to be together forever. I can't wait. I have never been so anxious and excited before.

    I wish I could stand on top of the world and tell everyone how in love with you I am.



    <3

Friday, 07 May 2010

  • Last night

    was like the worst night ever.

    This is a personal blog, directed towards my boyfriend/fiance/future hubby, so others need not read/reply.



    Marcus,
       Last night I was harsher than I needed to be, and you probably felt attacked. I am sorry. When I said it was not that big of a deal I meant it, and you didn't take it as such. All I was TRYING to ask was that you open up to me and tell me details of your day, etc and tell me about your childhood..... stuff you've never told me before.

    I don't know how I got it blown so far out of proportion, and I don't know how we went to bed like that. I know that I vow to never go to bed with either one of us upset as long as we're together, meaning forever.

    I barely slept at all, I tossed and turned all night. I've called and left you two voicemails, I left a few texts, and I'll make every effort to talk to you TONIGHT, before dinner, about this. I can't have you sad and feeling confused.



    Please don't leave me.



    Jennifer

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